As I am writing this, I need you to know that every keyboard stroke has been hesitant. I have deleted words, paused, and taken a breath more than I usually do while writing. (Way more than I usually do.) I need you to know that this is how I feel whenever I talk about politics these days.
I am not from the United States. I was not born here, and before coming to Boston University I never lived here. However, through my majors (International Relations and History) I study the United States a lot. It is a country I am invested in, but it is also a country I have always been invested in. You would not necessarily know this If I did not speak to you in person. That is because I am scared.
I am scared of publishing my thoughts on immigration because someone might turn around and remind me I am not from here. This person will not know that I never forget where I am from.
I am scared of publishing my thoughts on women’s rights because someone might turn around and say that where I am from, those rights are even hazier. This person will not realize that that is why I need to at least feel safe here.
I am scared of publishing my thoughts against racism because someone might think I am “another embittered person of color”. This person will never take my words with rationality.
I am scared of a lot more.
I am not from here and I worry every day that my nationality does not give me a right to comment on today’s news. If someone told me that in person, I would courageously say that the news of this country is affecting every part of the world! I live here, and currently the news does affect me, so I should have the right to talk about it.
Then why do I fear before posting any of my thoughts on social media?
I think I fear the permanence of it. I am scared of the pressure to be eloquent to especially prove that I know what I am talking about because I am not from here. I am scared of offending someone, even if that worry might not always be reciprocated by others towards me. This post is one of the many small steps I am taking to conquer this fear.
It is 2017, it is a globalized world, and if I am well-informed enough, I will have an [written] opinion on it.