There is No Art to Letting Go

| February 28, 2018 | 0 Comments

If you saw my Google Chrome browser right now, you would find at least ten tabs open – one of them is YouTube, the other is Facebook, and the eight others are long opinion pieces or articles that I have had on there for at least two weeks. In two more weeks, my laptop will start slowing down and I will keep it switched on because I do not want to lose those articles, until the day nothing loads. Then I will restart my computer and never find those articles again. I have read several other articles for school and on other platforms, so it is okay. Right?

The scenario I just painted is the best analogy I can describe to having important debates and conversations in 2017. I have been lucky enough to find a group of people on campus that have challenged me to engage in difficult topics of conversation with respect and empathy. I enjoy asking someone for more than their favorite song – how about their thoughts on media representation? Every day, I try to push my interactions to be meaningful and intentional. But some days I cannot.

Some days, all I do is binge watch Will & Grace. I endlessly search for trailers on YouTube until I find the next romantic comedy I want to watch. On other days, I will do that with friends and then suddenly hear something that warrants a conversation – an iffy comment, an ignorant statement – and I engage in it. However, I engage in it with no benefit.

My friends will roll their eyes and look at me with annoyance. They will say “it was just a comment” and “it means nothing.” I will still insist on a conversation to engage in both of our points of view, but neither of us will budge. Awkwardly, we will go back to the movie and I will count the minutes till I can leave.

Are there friends that will only remain movie friends? Because I do not want that.

Am I supposed to change that? Because it is exhausting.

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I think everybody needs a platform to engage in meaningful conversations, but how can I force such a platform? How do I engage in conversation with people who are set in their ways? Does this belief of mine makes me set in my ways?

I am allowed to have a day off, to close my tabs and start afresh. However, if I let moments pass by I am not taking a day off – I am being complacent. That fine line is the one I struggle with every day. It is the line I need so much help deciphering, and someday I hope a conversation leads me to that answer.

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Hansika Ramchandani

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Hansika Ramchandani is a Junior double majoring in History and International Relations. She loves it when you laugh at all of her [not] funny jokes and accept the fact that she needs yet another cup of coffee.

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